Stage 4 Endo....

Well, I got some news on friday that has had me really bummed.  I was diagnosed with stage 4 endometriosis, and a hysterectomy is my only option.  Not only is my uterus full of it, but it has spread to the outside, and has attatched to my organs.  So April 27th will be my pre-op appointment.  WOW!!!  Its alot to take in and wrap my mind around.  I will turn 28 on April 6.  I just feel so overwhelmed.  I dont like feeling like I dont have control over my body, and no choices.   Since I started menstrating at 9, I have had issues.  Heavy, very painful cycles.  After I had Jasmine, thing went out of control.  I started having 2-3 periods a month, passing huge blood clots, and was in constant pain.  After 4 years of trying every possible treatment, I had an abation.  During the surgery, the doctor found more endometriosis than he had expected, on the inside and outside of the uterus.  That was 4 years ago.  And things have gotten bad again.   They are much worse this time though.  So here we go...So I have a long "To Do List" to complete before surgery since I will be down for a while.  Geez!!!  I dont have time for this!