So I am helping my mom out this week (Monday-Wednesday) at her music school. She is having summer camps for pre-schoolers. She has a full house, so I am helping out on my days off, so she can keep things running smoothly, and I can earn some extra $. It actually has been ALOT of fun, but I have to say, That being around all those sweet preschoolers, tugs on my heart a little. We always wanted to have more children. We had always thought we'd have 3 or so. And clearly that wasn't how things turned out. There is this sweet brother and sister pair in the camp, the sister reminds me soo much of Jasmine. She looks just like her, except she has brown eyes, and acts just like her. It actually trips me out a little. But her brother, I could just take him home! He is the cutest little guy EVER. He spent most of the day, wanting to play with me. We hung out this morning and build rocket ships and towers with legos. He told me that he really liked the school, and wanted to come everyday. And he said I want you to be here everyday. As I spent the day playing, sining songs, painting, being totally silly and what-not, I kept wondering. If we had had more kids, what would they have looked like? If we had a son, would he have looked like this fab little guy? How would our lives have been different? What would their personalities have been like.
I know that it does me no good to think these thoughts because whats done is done. It simply wasn't the way it was supposed to be.
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