I blame it the hormones....

I feel like I am at a crossroads...I have felt this way for a while, and I keep pushing it aside. But it is time for action.  Sometimes, I look at my life, and I dont know what to think.  Sometimes, its hard for me to believe everything I have gone through in my life. And at 29, going through menopause, I feel I have lived an entire life full of tragedy, craziness, life lessons, happiness, and pain. Like I should be 85 looking back on my life.  It almost seems ridiculously unreal, when I look back on my 29 years.  Ive always been told, that I am an old soul, wise beyond my years. Sometimes, I feel like I have lived 5 lifetimes in my life.  People say, "God never gives you more than you can handle" Well, I am convinced that god has a pretty wicked sense of humor then. Many times, I was sure I wouldnt make it through at all, but here I am.  And I am starting to realize, that I am meant to do so much more.  Do you ever just feel like you arent doing what you are supposed to be doing?  Like you arent using your talents and abilities the way you should?  Like you were meant to be doing really big things, and you are instead sitting back in the shadows?  I think part of it, is although I am 29, because of the hyst and menopause, my body is acting like its 55.  But I just feel an urgency to make big changes.  I feel like I am wasting time.  Stay tuned my friends, big things will be happening...