Wow! I cant believe that it is 2012!!! The year went by super fast in some ways...and not fast enough in others. 2011 was pretty rough. So much has changed. The tragic loss of a sister. new diagnosis. quiting a job of 6 years. finding out who my true friends are. moving on from the toxic ones. finding my half sister. rebuilding relationships with my other sisters. As I reflect on the past year (s) I am looking forward to this coming year. I have alot of goals this year...I am turning 30 this year you know...I am still working on my 30 before 30 list =) But also Bryan and I are working to close a huge chapter in our life, and truly move forward with a fresh start, and we are so looking forward to it. I am also going to really, honestly focus on me this year. I am going to continue to try to be as healthy as I can. But my main goal is to find inner peace...to allow myself to let go of some intense s#!t I have carried around for far to long, and try to heal. Losing my oldest sister has really put so many things in perspective, and I want to LIVE my life, how ever long that is. I want to feel comfortable and happy in my own skin, and I want to be able to love myself (or at least like myself) I want to be able to see myself the way my family and friends see me. And I want to be able to not blame myself EVERYDAY for what happened to Jasmine. I know...everyone tells me I shouldnt, its not my fault, but I blame myself... I also realize that the last part will take longer than a year to achieve, but you have to start somewhere right?
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