Meno-WTF

Menopause...

So I just have to vent for a few minutes. I feel like I am on a crazy train to hell. I cant remember anything. I have full on hot-flashes. I have night sweats. My hormones are all over the place, along with my mood and emotions. And although I have been trying to control myself, I am not succeeding very well. We just got new insurance, so I am going to email my old gyno, and see who he recommends as far as aetna carriers and see about getting this under control. Otherwise, who knows what will happen(lol)... 

When I say I feel like I am on a crazy train, Here is an example...(Please dont think less of me, this is completely hormone induced)

The other day, my husband went to go help my mom set up her computer at her new studio, and I had given him a list for the store to stop by on his way home. He was gone for a little over 2 hours. When he got home, I didnt offer to help him bring the bags in, I didnt even say "hello" I just started bitching about how long he was gone, and accused him of leaving Jasmine and I here alone, and going out to lunch or something. He then said calmly, "Um no, it took me about an hour with your mom, and then I went to 2 grocery stores so I could get you exactly what we needed, and not spend a ton of $" I was half listening to him as I went through the bags. I looked in the first bag and freaked out again. There was a bottle of shampoo in there (for all of you that know me, know that I am a hairstylist, and I work in a Bumble salon) So then I said "What the hell is this" as I hold the bottle up "Why would you buy this crap when I told you I would bring shampoo home, this is completely ridiculous"  He said to me "well, babe, that was over 2 weeks ago. I dont have any shampoo, I have reminded you and asked you about it a few times, and I didnt want to use your fancy treatment stuff. I have been using bodywash on my head"  I then continued to look through the bags, and I started to get teary eyed. I noticed that he had gotten everything I needed, plus other things we needed, that I had forgotten to put on the list. He went to 2 stores to get a few special vegan items we needed. He spent an hour helping my mom with her computer, and went because I was in a bad mood and didnt want to go help her. I was complete bitch to him, and he didnt deserve it. I stopped and apologized for being so crazy.I went from crazed maniac to teary wreck in a matter of seconds. Can anyone say HOT MESS? I was a complete freak, and for what? Him buying shampoo? 

So yeah, I need HELP! And my husband is an amazing man, who deserves the vacation of his dreams (possibly away from me) for putting up with me.